How do I process all of this?

Every day there are countless moments.

Simple. Minuscule. Moments.

Today has had an array of emotions.

My day started by finding out that I lost a friend…

My heart sank. A man I have known for 10 years is no longer with us. We toured the East Coast of the US in 2013 together. I honestly don’t have words for it. He was one of the biggest, strongest, baddest dudes that I ever knew. This is second person that has left this Earth in the last month.

I am sad. This is tragic. This hurts. This hurts so much that I can’t feel.

We don’t have time.

We don’t have time for hate.

We don’t have time to be selfish.

There are people in this world that need us.

There are people here that deserve our best version of self.

We need to slow down.

We need to smile.

We need to say hello to strangers.

We need to hug more.

We need to love more.

We need to celebrate each other while we live.

We need to help each other.

We need to be there.

We need to be present.

We need each other.

There’s no time.

There’s no time to waste.

There’s no time to squabble.

There’s no time to wait until next time.

I need you.

I need a hug.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I didn’t know you better.

I’m sorry I didn’t make the effort.

I’m sorry you’re gone.

I’m sorry you don’t have any more time.

I’m sorry that I have ever wasted mine.

I will try.

I will try harder.

I will try to burn so bright that I light up the world.

I will try for you.

We will carry your light to those who need it.

Rest in Peace Ron Gilbert.



(Wouldn’t you know….my computer crashed the second that I typed that last line….)


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